31 July 2008
The air is still, calm, peaceful. Just like the ocean in which our eyes gaze upon as we sit by the coast. Tonight is a special night of revelry. We have come together after many many many months of conflict with no resolution. Sitting next to each other, you sense the awkwardness, you fell restless and you break into those dreaded cold sweats. There she is, boy, the girl of your dreams right in front of your eyes. Those fights seem so meaningless now. Petty, unnecessary disputes which are blown by with the breeze that caress her lovely long black hair.
You smile and slide your hand into hers. You know, tonight is special. Tonight is just beautiful.
01 August 2008
I have a hobby. My hobby is to make things a hobby. Yet, these hobbies bear very little fruit because half the things i want to do are things that are just one too many steps beyond my comfort zone. The easy zone which my brain has adapted and called home. They are in no way impossible to accomplish but, the chore of adapting is as what it is, a Chore. So everything becomes a pedestrian, a desire to get to the other side of the highway but not wanting to build the bridge to get across. If you get my metaphor.
There is so many things I want to accomplish in such a short span of time. I want to be a musician, entertaining people with my one big passion, music. Letting them feel the emotions I have felt growing up listening to the spectrum of music and connecting with most. Enjoying every nook and cranny of what it has given me, and wanting to be a part of it all. A musician. I have fallen in love with graphic novels, and want to just absorb myself in these comics which I never did when I was a kid. I would like to master digital photography because capturing emotion and beauty is fascinating to me. I want to be a competent dancer, able to at the very least, not look like a doofus next to my wonderful girlfriend. Better still, impress her with my rhythm and skill. I am letting loose a very adventurous side of me when I say I'm keen on getting into rock climbing. I am a chicken, a pussy really. I am afraid of height, rollercoasters, and everything that involves my feet not firmly grounded on land. Hence, I have been afraid to do all this adventure stuff and now, I know I was so stupid and missed out on a lot of shit when I was younger. Lastly, as I mature, I have develop this taste for travel. I have met people who have gone on travels with just a big back and minimal money. Living in hostels, and still experiencing cultures of foreign lands and meeting people from across the continents. I want that experience. I want to live a backpacker life for a while. I want to see the world.
There are just so many things I want to do. I guess it is normal for any 21 year old to do all the stuff they can, especially since we're aware that time is running out for us. Adulthood is already at the door. But, problem with me is I want all these things at one go, without due consideration of time and money and feasibility of it all. I want the world but not conquer each island, each country, each continent at a time. I just want it all Now Now Now.
Gah.. The Greed of Me. No wonder I never learn to do anything right.
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